An open letter to ourselves

Memories will always be our shadows of the past.

There will be moments where we've shared anew with others,
Experienced a whole new adventure or tried being fucked up..
And not minding how others would think about us.
Because all along, we knew that we were just having fun
But later on realize, that we are actually making memories.

Depicted through pictures are good memories.
Wide smiles and wild vibes.
Candidly caught on shots are also memorable
Photographs of victory and success.
Melancholy can also be painted through a snap on one's eye.

Good moments..
The part where you may want to play and rewind the moments,
That will make you smile no matter what is going on with your life..
These are the moments that will tell you that you are with the best people at the right place and time.
That will remind you of how on track you are,
And try to pause and feel the happiness of such moment.

Bad moments..
The part where you may want to play and click stop,
That gave you pain in a heartbeat,
Reminded you of life decisions, regrets and mistakes.
And got you to question on why does it have to be replayed again,
One thing's for sure,
It was done to serve its purpose,
To remind us of life decisions and give us good lessons.
As the saying goes...
"If you don't do stupid things while you're young, you'll have nothing to smile about when you're old"

Now, anyone can testify,
That the best memories are those not captured by one's camera
Or caught on video of a certain "one of the books" moment
And eventually storing it to one's camera roll or micro SD, flash drives, hard drives..

But those moments caught and stored deeply in the mind and heart,
The kind of no pretensions and scripted kind of reactions,
The moments where you feel serene, spontaneous and at scheme.
And is one of things you might want to go back and hold on,
For these are one of the things that does not change.
Like a diary that you can carry about with,
That can't be destroyed nor reproduced.

Yes, some would wish they could have not done such,

Or some would replay it a million times in their heads,

But at the end of the day it is the memory that makes you the person you are now.

That shaped every detail of you

Making our memories so powerful,

It keeps on retelling your special moments,

And reveals your story of the present and the future.

The 4th of October 2015 (Ignorantia Juris Neminem Excusat) is one for my books. Experienced being in pain, in awe, in excitement, in happiness, in shame, in tense, in uneasiness. A day I may want to rape the replay button in my head a million times. C'est La Vie! With love, ishlim36

SUNDAZE

After all the stress and cram from last week's acads, today's Sunday, I finally had the time for my family as we gathered at our grandparent's house for lunch. Had a great one with them tho! Plus our Lolo Daddy who always sets the day in a light-hearted and gleeful manner, especially for me. (Who wouldn't be happy to have her lunch without books, paper works, quizzes and exams in mind that awaits before your table hahaha!)

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Anyhow, my kind of Sundaze for today is to be able to catch up with my hobbies and that includes updating my blog! And one on my lists is to have a pictures in a formal-almost-kind-of-blogger-like Sara's, Carmen Hamilton's and Margaret Zhang's. But since I am on my so called "pambahay" get up, I had my sister as my prospect for my second blog this 2015!

Red "GIRL" tee xx cropped shorts xx black shoes

 

And so, around 3 pm of this day, I dragged my sister out of the house and took some photos of her and her basic style-ish. Yes, That's her style! I love how the combinations of basic colors make Sundays look great. (And yeah, I admit it, my sister can make basic clothing look stylish)

Who would have thought that a plain red "GIRL" tee, cropped shorts, black shoes and a good weather would work together?

SERENITEA DAVAO

SERENITEA IS A PLACE TO BE.

Two thumbs up for Davao's new place to chill and hangout. This is not just an ordinary tea shop for chit chats and catching ups but also a place to give time to one's acads for this place has its great lights, perfect place for studying!

Their affordable and must try teas are not your ordinary cup of tea. This would surely sustain you to Davao's next chill out place.

Okinawa| One of their best sellers

But what I like about this place is how it catches my attention. The interiors would lighten up one's mood. All the mantras, books, lights, mirrors are just so pleasing to one's eye, totally fits one's search for serenity. Kudos to its well thought concept, truly an IG worthy place!!

SERENITEA is located at Victoria Plaza Complex, J.P Laurel Ave, Bajada Davao City. Serving from Mondays to Fridays 11:00AM until 12:00AM

8 THINGS YOU'D REGRET IN LIFE

Just some 8 possible things you'd regret doing in your life. .

1. Wasting your time on a person not the worth.

Allotting time and effort to a person who just want to let "the- good- times- roll" in a not good memorable way. A person who sees life as a game and you are just one of the players he/ she wants to play with. That can be one of the biggest mistake in your life.

2. Giving nth chances to persons not appreciating it.

Overpowering heart over mind sometimes causes this distress. Giving nth chances just looses the value of appreciation and preserving the true meaning of a relationship. Can be one of the biggest mistake in your life.

3. Taken for granted one's worth.

Too busy securing and guarding your own for the sake of not experiencing hurt again. Or too busy spending your time with other people, (1) and forgetting a person's worth, sacrifice and effort. Then eventually realizing someone's worth when he/ she's gone. That can be one of the biggest mistake in your life.

4. Not being on someone's shoulder when he/ she needs to.

Just too lame for you not to be sensitive enough to know if a friend, beloved, someone so close to your heart hurt, and eventually being dumped with lists of you "not being there for him/ her when he/ she needs you" for you are too busy with (1) and (2). You just committed a mistake because you have (3).

5. Not giving your all in a fight.

 There are two things in here,either you are afraid to or too relaxed because of too much confidence. Then eventually realizing that you have just slipped away the one last big shot of your life. Can be one of the biggest mistake of your life.

6. Loosing yourself.

Focusing your life (1) or (2) then eventually have (3) and (5) realizing you were not yourself anymore. You just have wore a false disguise of your own. Being someone for others to accept is a NO NO. Can be one of the biggest mistakes in life.

7. Choosing to close a door.

Choosing to close your door because of the fear of opening the lock to new opportunities and seeing true happiness in life. Isolating oneself in a close door because of the unwanted freedom from the past is just so lame. Can be one of the mistakes you'd have in life.

And all of these boils down to one thing. Bottom line, it's our

8. DECISIONS

Deciding because off too much anger, depression, happiness and excitement would not help. As our Theology teacher keeps on reminding us, decide not when your feelings are too high or too low, decide when you are relaxed. Listen to your mind, feel your heart. And when both  coincide, then that's the perfect time to decide on things. Never rush, much more not delay. Give allowances to everything and you'll just be good with it. Or if not, then your decision of (1), (2), (3), (4), (5), (6) and (7) would be the biggest regret you'd have in your life.

IBEL

Contented

I never intend to be in this situation. The feel of locks in. The feel that the earth is all over your shoulder. How a superhero feels when he doesn't save the humanity. How a lawyer may feel when he doesn't give justice to his client. How a lover feels when he doesn't give joy to his beloved. How an ant may be feeling when it is not ready for calamity. How a bird may feel when its locked in bars.

I always feel chest pains, my heart breaking. Every time.

Every time I see my colleagues suffers the stress, enjoys their company, seeing their smiles and happiness.
But mostly the PRIDE they have.

I always imagine myself in theirs.

What does it feel like? Could I bear the out of weigh stress? How would my appeal be to my to-be-so-this-up-so-close professors? Would I also have the pride within me?

I definitely will have that. Adding a one point mark afterall, would complete my life.

Everything just changed with a one point mark.

You suddenly don't know who you are. Don't know the difference between this and that. It feels like you are physically present , but emotionally dead. You immediately cannot distinguish how to act.

Abruptly insane.

But mostly presumptuous enough to be noted a no no of being a trickster. I cannot obtain to that kind of a confusing mannerism that would inhibit to my desired dignity and love for a thing that I find justifiable and noble. I would not dare to. Beauty can kill and overpower poisonous posture. Proven and tested.

I don't have to blame everything from the above, considering the unending novenas, devotion, prayers intentionally done for this. It was exactly the assertiveness within that killed me.That drowned me, that gave me that less than a point.

Well of course I have to say it will always belong to the past. A biggest regret of the past.With a little discrimination done to others' races would certainly fit my feelings.

Prejudices. Adjuring self- worth. Prompt adjustments. Feels of superiority.

Deluging due to shame. I feel so sorry for myself. I never planned anything like this. I even don't think I am worth of this. I may be slapped with it, but I think I have done something better than that. Enduring for almost half of the year. Oh I missed that feeling of satisfaction a year ago.

But it isn't a big world problem to be discussed. I just need to speak it out. There is a great day ahead for me, us! God may have plans, and I am ready for it this time. What I learned from this thing, know what you really want, and it will guide you to your destiny. Loving it, feeling it, owning it, wanting it won't be enough if it isn't really for you. But is blessed for I am contented for everything that happens that proves that God is with me, always!

IBEL